Chapter 21
The term ‘Class‘, while originating in the adventurer field, has been expanded to regular use in many fields of work. Mages of any class can find work in many fields that don’t involve combat. Individuals with martial classes often find work in law enforcement or security careers. Additionally, the list of classes has been greatly expanded over the ages. Many classes, such as the Arsenal martial class and Mechanist mage class, are among the more recent additions. There is also the third general class type called Hybrids. Hybrid classes use a combination of martial skills and magical abilities to become a truly lethal threat. While a hybrid will never be as skilled in either field as a martial or a mage, they seamlessly blend the two to devastating effect.
While I was unconscious, I dreamt. The details are unclear to me, but I remember it wasn’t pleasant. Blood, darkness, screams, flashing fangs and claws, and worst of all, a deep hunger that could not be sated. I couldn’t tell you if I was on the receiving end of the terror or if I was the one causing it. As I started floating back up into the real world, I heard something. As I fully came back to the world of the living, I recognized the sound as a feminine voice humming the tune to a lullaby. I knew the lullaby as The King’s Ninth Cat. It’s a simple nursery song about a king who lost all nine lives of eight pet cats to tragedy and how he assigned his royal guard to his ninth cat. It was a strange story that I never really understood.
Right before I opened my eyes, I realized that my head was propped up on something hard and rough. When I opened my eyes, I found myself staring up at Nennel, holding my head in her lap as she hummed the tune. While Nel quietly hummed, she held a damp rag against my brow.
I shot up into the sitting position in a panic, remembering what had occurred before I lost consciousness. As I rose with elastic speed, I looked around, checking for both Ferris and any threats. We were in a small office space that was left mostly untouched other than the standard wear of time and a thick coating of dust. Nennel had her back propped against the rear wall opposite the door. The door was closed and blocked with a thick office desk, an old computer terminal still attached to the face. To my left was a bookshelf that held what were once books but were now moldering piles of pulp. Against the wall to my right was a table piled high with nude magazines made from a plastic material. Ferris's and my supply packs lay on the floor in front of the table. Ferris was sitting between that table and the door, lounging in an office chair that must’ve been older than any of us. The sharp-toothed Elf flipped through a magazine and absentmindedly played with a toothpick.
The room, while devoid of claw marks, signs of nesting, or murder, was still thick with the scent of the moldering books and the carpet of dust. My jarring motion sent up a thick cloud of dust from the surrounding floor. My violent movement caused a wave of nausea to climb up my throat. But when I started coughing from the dust, that nausea developed into gagging. On hands and knees, I threw myself into the corner farthest from the other two and readied to wretch up my guts. The only outcome was a severe case of dry-heaving. While I heaved and shuddered from the reflex, Nennel came over and started rubbing my back in small, gentle circles.
“Easy there Ives’. You were in a bad state when we brought you in here. You were banged all to hell and bleeding pretty bad.” Nennel commented in a soothing tone.
Ferris spoke up from his seat in a less soothing voice, “Yeah. Couple all that with a minor case of myst poisoning, chemical burns, and likely damaged lungs from inhaling those fumes. You looked like you’d ran through hell in the nude and wound up getting shat out by a dragon with digestive problems.”
I took steadying breaths while Nennel chewed out Ferris. “Come on, Fer. Don’t be an ass.”
“Excuse me, Nel, but who was the one that had to strip him out of his nasty clothes and give him a sponge bath while you patched him up? That’s right. Me. I got to see more of Iver than I ever planned on witnessing.”
“Oh, quit your bitching, Elf-boy. I haven’t given you any trouble for what you’ve been reading. Aren’t naked girls supposed to act like mind bleach for you Y chromosome apes?”
“Wait.” I wheezed out as I turned away from the corner. “You guys had to strip me?”
Ferris looked up from his magazine to make eye contact with me. “Damn right we did. While you looked like a disaster that crawled out of an apocalypse horror flick, your clothes were pretty much rags that smelled like a sewage station.”
I looked down at myself to find that I was wearing a clean pair of green cargo pants and a plain black T-shirt, but nothing else.
I felt heat rise in my cheeks at the thought. Those two were not the first people my age I wanted to see me stripped bare. “I-uh. Sorry. Sorry, you had to see that.”
“See what?” Ferris asked. “You mean your dangley bits? While I wasn’t a fan of that, I had more issue with the scars.”
My eyes went wide as I closed in on myself in shame.
“S-sorry.” I repeated.
Nennel stepped in front of me, where I sat huddled on the floor and pressed a metal fist gently against the top of my head. “Don’t stress it, Ives’. You’re not the first guy I’ve seen naked. I’ve got a brother, after all. And if I’m lucky in romance, you won’t be the last. I don’t care about that… But your scars…”
I pressed my face into my knees as I muttered, “I know they’re ugly and gross.”
After a long moment of silence, I looked up to see the other two glaring at me, and I retreated back into my knees.
“Iver Maverick. You stupid moron.” Nennel scolded. “We aren’t grossed out by them. What we are is angry about them.”
If I could’ve curled up smaller, I would have. “I know. I screw up a lot. I cause problems. The scars are just a sign of how bad at life I am.”
I heard a magazine drop and a chair shifting before heavy, storming steps marched up to me. A narrow fist sharply worked its way past my face to grip the collar of my shirt, and it yanked me to my feet with vicious force. My feet held none of my weight, dangling limply like a pair of vestigial noodles.
The next thing I knew, I was panicking and staring into a raging pair of eyes with jade green irises and amethyst sclera. “Don’t you say that. Don’t you fucking say that about yourself.” Ferris snarled between clenched triangular teeth. “You got those scars and those thoughts from your sociopathic, sadistic, lunatic uncle. You, are not a screwup. You, do not cause problems. I can count three times since we got to the city that you’ve saved my life, and one of those times was only a few hours ago. I’ve seen you piece Nennel back together after rescuing her from those Cy-Skav monsters. I will NOT let you talk shit about yourself after you risked your life, I don’t know how many times, to get us all to safety.”
My panic rose with Ferris’s hostile tone. While part of me was aware of what he was saying, another part was already arguing each comment, and yet another part was spiraling into instability. I couldn’t catch my breath. My chest was tight, and my heart pounded a machinegun staccato rhythm. My chest stung with each inhale and heartbeat, and my head swam as I couldn’t stop the tears from coming.
A mechanical female hand rested on Ferris’s arm as Nennel stepped up. With gentle pressure, she made Ferris release me. I fell to the floor like a pile of dirty laundry. Laying on my side on the floor, I curled into the fetal position and quietly sobbed.
“Ferris,” Nennel muttered to the Elf. “We don’t know what happened to him when we were separated. You saw the state he was in. I would love to blame all of that damage on the ghouls. But you saw those wounds. All of the gashes match his claws. You also saw the condition of his legs. He must’ve ruptured dozens of blood vessels and torn plenty of muscle. Between those two, the bruises that I think he caused by accident, and the myst poisoning, which only he could have caused… I think he pushed himself to breaking. Honestly, I think he pushed himself far past the breaking point.”
“So you’re saying we just let him beat himself mentally into a lump of more trauma?” Ferris demanded. “We both know that he’s not as worthless as he thinks he is. You’ve heard him shit-talk himself as much as I have. I’m tired of it. That guy,” I could almost hear him pointing at me. “is a madman. He is a lunatic saint who pulls off the impossible time and again. Then he turns around and beats himself up for any slight mistake. We can’t let him keep this masochistic act up.”
“Ferris, do you really think that snapping at him and demanding he feel better will help at all?” Nennel gently chided.
“You heard what Thrasher said, Nel. The Mystagogue has heard him crying in his room a dozen times while he was at the manor. Both Thrasher and Navor told us to keep an eye on him and cut off any self-abuse as soon as it starts.”
“I think I have an idea of what happened.” Nennel said before there was another long moment of silence. The next thing I knew, Nennel was squatting next to me, resting a hand on my shoulder. “Iver, does your medication contain myst?”
I gave a slight nod without looking up.
“Does it feel like your medication is working right now?”
I took in a deep, shuddering breath and held it as I did my best to look for the signs of whether my medication working or not. In answer, I gave a shake of the head before falling back into sobs.
“Then that’s what’s going on. Give me a second to find your medication.” Nennel said as she stood and moved away.
“What’s going on?” Ferris asked, sounding much calmer than before.
I could hear Nennel rummaging through my bag as she explained. “Iver’s medication makes sure that he has a constant amount of tailored Resonance and Life Myst in his system while the medication is active, to help keep him stable. Because of that, he’ll reach myst poisoning quicker than if he didn’t have the medication. When your body suffers from myst poisoning, it tries to dump all the myst affecting your body. His body trying to expel the myst is why his veins were glowing, but that also means that his body was pushing out the stabilizing Resonance Myst. My best guess is that tailored myst casts as a catalyst to make sure the other components have the needed effects. So, no catalyst in his system means no anti-crazy effects. Either that or maybe his body is also trying to push out every part of the medication because of how much damage he had.”
“I guess that makes sense. Before he was medicated, he was a bit unhinged if things didn’t go as planned.” Ferris commented.
“Crap.” Nennel curse.
“What?” Ferris asked. “Did he not pack his meds?”
“No, he did. But they’re behind a biometric lock.” Nennel was beside me again, only seconds later. “Iver, I’m going to borrow your hand so I can get your meds. Okay?”
After I gave a single nod, I let go of my legs with my right hand. Nennel carefully took my hand and pressed my thumb against the scanner of the box. I heard the familiar beep and click of the box opening. I recognized the sound of Nennel checking the contents of the box before slotting a new vial into the hypo-jector and attaching a fresh needle tip.
“Damn, Nel. You have experience with this kind of thing?” Ferris asked in an impressed tone.
“Kinda. My little sister was diagnosed Type 1 Diabetic when she was still really little. Everyone in the house had to go through a course that taught all of the mechanics to keep her blood sugar under control. My parents were out of the house a lot. And after my brother left to join the military, I was in charge of counting Serra’s carbs and managing her insulin doses until she was old enough to manage on her own. This seems relatively similar, and I don’t have to worry about a wrong dosage because it’s marked on the vials. I just don’t know where to inject.” Nennel put a hand on my shoulder again as she asked, “Where do I need to poke you, Iver?”
Unable to form cohesive words, I simply shifted my top shoulder toward Nennel, and she got the message. She rolled up my sleeve and stuck me in the upper arm with the exposed needle. A squeak of discomfort slipped from my lips at the prick, followed by a hiss as I felt the fluid enter my body. Once she gave me the full dose, Nennel stepped back and set to putting the supplies away as she told Ferris to give me some time to let the medication take effect.
It only took a few minutes for the medication to start correcting my brain chemistry and calming me down to a more stable state. While my sobs quieted and my breathing slowed, I still found my thoughts weighed down with dark emotions. I lay there on the floor, gathering myself. With the torrent of negative emotions quelled, my thoughts were clearer and less tinged with negativity. I had a firmer grip on who I was. Mostly, I just felt shame at the breakdown in front of Nel and Ferris. I knew I shouldn’t have felt so stupid about it. They had witnessed me unmedicated for the majority of the year before. But somehow, knowing that my reactions and thoughts were brought on because my mind was broken made it embarrassing.
I’m going to take a second here to say something to anyone reading this who has a mental condition. Having something wrong with your brain chemistry or psyche DOES NOT MAKE YOU BROKEN! My perspective of my anxiety-meat being damaged goods was caused by years of trauma and abuse. And, yes, I refer to the brain of any sapient species as anxiety-meat.
As I sit here now with Tave, I need to remind you that it’s perfectly okay for someone to need medication and/or therapy to remain functional. We no longer live in an age where mental conditions are blamed on evil spirits. We are also well past the era when having a condition got you strapped to a table and zapped till you were “fixed”. I’m willing to bet a fair amount of clat that even some of your heroes and idles need mental help. Hells, if you’re reading this, then you likely are at least partly a fan of a least one of my many monikers. Even Heroes and augmented super troopers need help after the shit they’ve seen. So stop being stupid and feel better about yourself.
When I finally pulled out of my ball on the floor, Nennel was reading a book, and Ferris was still flipping through nude mags. “Feel better?” Nennel asked without looking up.
“I, uh, yeah. Sorry about that.” I apologize as I rubbed the back of my head in embarrassment.
Something light slapped against my face, causing me to flinch. “Stop apologizing, horn-head.” Ferris rebuked. “We all have problems. And if you think that we’re going to have an issue with helping you with yours, I swear I’ll keep throwing nude mags at you till I get it through your head.”